alone... loneliness is oppressing me... her ghost is haunting my life once more...
i think that the end of a love is composed by many parts, many phases... and i'm entering the second one... the melancholy is pervading me in every atom of my body... i'm trying to pull it away, i trying to hate her but every time i find a good record it erases all my hard work and make me restart from zero once again... i'm still wondering why i have to do all this... why i have been betrayed so much... why she had to do that... i know love should not become a job, but it can neither be consider a mere game... it can hurt so much... hurt to death...
i'd like to have a remote controller to change the channel of my life, i've tried changing outside but today more than in the past i need back those emotions, those sensations, those feelings that were my life only a few months ago...
it was so perfect and i was so stupid to think that it would have last forever... i had promise myself i would have never believed in forever anymore, but against love i lost all my capabilities... and here's the consequences...
i need back my happiness, my serenity, my love... but it couldn't ever been like before... anymore...