lucky me, lucky you...
i've really no idea about who you are, about who is reading and will read my blog... i hadn't meant to start my public space with this tragic, painful, paranoid topics... but that it is...
i've not planned how often i'll refresh my blog, how often i'll add news about me and about my life... in this moment i simply need to say what's in my soul, to give it to the world trying to get something back, something good to help me going on... i really need to restart my life, to reset the machine i've become during this last period... i need changes, real changes... outside and inside me...
i'd like to have some feedback from my readers, some kind words, to do not feel so alone... my only friend is my interior pain, that kind of pain that can fill you but still let you feel empty and useless...
the meaninglessness of my life is oppressing me, the routine isn't surely helping me to face the situation the best, but i think i still have a chance... tomorrow could bring new opportunities and i have to be ready to catch them on fly...
if only she could help me...