there are days, like this, when it's just too difficult for me to do not think to her. Everything i see reminds me the great moments we used to spend together. A thing, a light, a music... and suddenly my mind run back to that past that i'm fighting to forget...
and i start thinking about her, about the sensations i felt when i were in her arms, her tenderness and her sharpness, our love. But then i turn back to the reality to tell me once again that it's over, that it must be over, that i need to go on for my sanity... that i've got to forget, but to not forgive what she's done to me... she just grabbed my heart away and threw it in a bloody can.
i'm still too close to what happened, but i just feel i'll never reach in feeling like i felt before... i can't like or love someone like i used to do before she rushed into my life.
i feel a deep, enormous pain, like chains on my body, on my souls... i'm prisoner of the present, running away from a bad beautiful past but not allowed to think to the future... if i think to my future i just can't see anything... it's past long time since last time i felt this way... i can't find the meaning of my life anymore... i have the same sensations i used to have, but they are completely empty... it's sad, so sad... but i still can't find a way out of this situation.