today dialogs made me miss her more then ever... so i decided to break the rule i had imposed to myself and write her a sms...
well, i've quickly realized that don't speaking to her for such a long time had made me idealize her...
she just repeated me the same old soup, with the same old cold tone and i feel really better now... i can look at the future more easily...
i think that i could find something better then her, that i have to come back to my roots, to look for a new happiness in my old interests, in my thoughts (that are growning day after day), in the music, played and listened...
i've got a lot of material to work on, and a wonderful university that can help me to realize myself, even as a man thanks to the great persons i've met there...
there's a new light in my eyes and i hope this time it will last a bit further than my last one...
my life is so full in this period that i think i can consider myself lucky after all...